I tried, I really did. I always thought the distance would kill everything, but somehow I grasped at some sort of hope that maybe, maybe I could defeat what they said would happen. Whats life without hope after all? Though, really, I were always irrelevant. 'Me'.

You know though, I shouldn't be surprised. 


I get it, I really do. And besides which, you're not the only one. I guess I just thought it'd be different somehow. Like the x years of knowing me would somehow affect something. And  just for the record, just because you're polite and go along with the things I say/do doesn't mean I don't know that you feel like you should be making the effort.

Sometimes[now], I just feel used.



H.