It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down.

You. Inspire. Me.


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You know what, I'm sorry to spam, and I told myself I wouldn't write this, in the spirit of all things Christmas, but its been a full day and its still eating me up inside ( or that could be just the many helpings of Christmas dinner deciding to resurface). Actually, I realise that my love of national holidays is such that nothing that anyone can ever do could compare to my over exaggerated expectations, but still I think given the effort I went to at least a thank-you would have been nice? You know, I don't even care if you don't even bother send me even a card, but the polite thing at least is to accept my token of kindness with good grace and appreciation. I guess you never learnt that life lesson.

Disclaimer: You are probably thinking 'oh-shit he's talking about me again' and you'd probably be dead wrong, again. If you have even the slightest doubt, go with it. 


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We've always been great friends yeah? So what are we now?




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I, its your move.

Somehow I missed it. All of it. I think I even knew, way back when, the initial encounter proclaimed, and a new title was staked out for the making. But since that fateful day all knowledge of existence had escaped this mind until now, and now, I feel like I've missed the real you, for all those months. I guess, the writing was always on the wall, just not one I could see ( but only hear).




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I will not be one of those "Thanks everyone for all the birthday wishes" people. I will reply. Individuality. 




So, this is it. Is it? Well I mean technically I'm only four hours in, but really I know. In fact, I somehow knew it was always going to be this way. The epitome of the perfect night out. The ones who wished they could, but couldn't, as usual. The ones who said they would but wouldn't, as usual. The ones who said the should, but didn't, as usual. And the one I missed the most, and missed me too, as usual.

Why expect anything less than the expected? Otherwise disappointment is sure to ensue.




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I think, I've become less brave.

You might've noticed I don't write on here as often any more. Rest assured nothing has changed. I still write just as much, I just don't have the guts to press 'publish post'  any more.




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you know, I know that you know. But you already knew that.




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This part of me loves the guy I am now.
That part of me hates him.

This part of me loves where I'm at.
That part of me can't wait to grow up and have security.




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maybe you wouldn't have to worry about your virtual footprint if you had put as much effort into the real world? #justsaying.


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You shouldn't feel obliged to come, just because it's a birthday. You should want  to come, just because it's me. And that, right there, is all  the difference.


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