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I'm waking up at the start of the end of the world but its feeling just like every other morning before and now I wonder what my life is going to mean if it's gone? The cars are moving like a half a mile an hour if that, and I started staring at the passengers who're waving goodbye. Can you tell me what was ever really special about me all this time?

I believe the world is burning to the ground, oh well i guess we're gonna find out how far we've come. Well I believe it all is coming to an end. Oh well, I guess we're gonna pretend, let's see how far we've come.

I think it turned ten o'clock but i don't really know, then I can't remember caring for an hour or so. Started crying and I couldn't stop myself, I started running but there's no where to run to. I sat down on the street and took a look at myself and said where you going man you know the world is headed for hell; say your goodbyes if you've got someone you can say goodbye to.

Its gone gone, its all gone. There is no one on the corner and there's no one at home. It was cool cool, it was just all cool, now it's over for me and it's over for you.


Pay my respects to grace and virtue, send my condolences to good. Hear my regards to soul and romance they always did the best they could. Will your system be alright when you dream of home tonight? There is no message I'm receiving; let me know, is your heart still beating?

Are we human or are we denser? My sign is vital, my hands are cold and I'm on my knees looking for the answer; are we human or are we denser?




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Watch out Monday; I'm coming.

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Super Ficial.

Does this make me superficial?
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Vultures.

Just quietly, why am I so annoyed? Is it because I'm jealous, or do I genuinely dislike the situation? Jealousy; I'm sure of it.
 
Where is this path taking me anyway? I can see the spirality, looping and looping, but the end? Where shalt thou be?
 
Today I was supposed to face the world. I even believed that myself. But when the choices had to be made, and the indescision grew, I chose nothing. I should have gone to SURGE. I should have gone to the heart festival. But then what would they all say? Had I found god yet? Whether I'm even looking might be a better question to ask. Or maybe; am I the new friend? You ask it, pretending as if you're joking, but I know there's some truth behind your question. It doesn't hurt, but then its not exactly pleasant. Even so, I'd much rather this than the alternative? What even is the alternative? We are not what you think we are; we are golden- teenage dreams like a teenage circus, running around like you did it on purpose.
 
What a waste, where did that time go? Where did our minds go? I don't know. But we fought like tomorrow was promised, and now we have too much. It's cold but I should have known. I'll admit I made a few mistakes; I was so caught up, I didn't have a chance to come up for air.
 
PS. The fact that you text me out of all the people makes me feel special. This is me remebering you. Part of me feels like we both pretend like we don't see whats happening. Face it; we both know there's something going on. [PSS Don't get the wrong idea; any of you...]
 
I other news; the arrival of skins has awoken the rebel side of me. Well sure, it was never really asleep? Drugs, strange encounters? now really! Part of me knows given the access it would happen. Though that does seem to be a reoccuring theme. How about those tracks between hughesdale and fantasy? Surely the lack of boundary will have some result sooner or later? Gotta get on that first train home; just say goodnight and go.
 
There's something missing from here; something known, yet not expressed, if only the remembering was just difficult. sinking feeling. Spin me round again. rub my eyes? THIS CAN'T BE HAPPENING; when those buys streets are a mess with people holding there heads heavy. Yeah. Right.
 
life reduced to depressive music, covering faces with sticky notes and the knowlege that the war means nothing anymore. Those brave soldiers running into battle; all for nothing. For the pretense of the war its self. There's no ground to be gained, yet those trenches stretch for miles, and the red poppies are pushing up like daisies, stained black with the stench of war. stop. end. fin.
 
 
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Do you think I didn't notice?
When the glove is worn, and the pastry is broken fast, the rapid dissapearance causes the strangest things, but then the snail mail was always the best anyway.

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Rain hail and shine; we live through the pain, face the music.

When the day gives off the false positivity; that sunshine, despite the impending rain.










Too much of anything is too much

Too much love can be too much

We had too much time

Too much us

So we fought like tomorrow was promised

All Time Low


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Oh English; isn't the fact I can speak it enough for you?

'write a 2000-3000 summary of the relevance of the film 'Vantage Point' to the ideas of the context; Whose Reality.'

The movie ‘vantage point’, was a stupid waste of my precious time. I do not appreciate wasting a solid hour and a half of my pre-exam preparation time watching such mindless dribble, and hence I did not feel the need to waste yet more of my study time writing 3000 words about the movie and how it relates to ‘whose reality’, when the link is stretched beyond all means, that ultimately it would take that many words to accurately convey it.




Do you think thats an acceptable response? I mean I know its a little short of the wordcount and all....
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It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh don’t kill yourself
'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you, yeh
Speeding Cars - Imogen Heap


Is it sad to say I'm in love with Imogen Heap? You should totally check her out. Yeah thats right, dog-whistle and all. But seriously, go to that record store and buy yourself 'Good Night and Go'. Its a single and you still get TWO whole songs. Now thats value!

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Beauty and the geek

Presenter: 'Who wrote Beethoven's 5th symphony?'
Beauty; 'eerr... John Farnham?'

Words

These are but words on a page. Nothing more, nothing less. LIE.

So they might be more than just words on a page, but I'm not entirely sure they convey the truth.

Embroidering is rather all to easy when you're not staring into the eyes of a friend holiding you accountable.

For Future Reference; take all the emotion in this blog's text, take the 2nd root, and perhaps you might be somewhere near the mark of the actual feeling.

If only life had an undo command. I'd control-Z back to last month.

P.S can't wait till monday. Nothing to do with school.

maybe the time was all wasted? But i had fun anyway.